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Make Dreams Happen. Clear Years of Blocks. Fears. Sabotage.
My Story

Trust me, I know what it’s like to want to make big changes but feel stuck. The pain became my comfort zone. I was too afraid to move beyond it. But that wasn’t the worst part. The worst part was knowing I had wings, realising how much potential I had, but choosing not to fly.

A lot of my work helping others is about doing the foundational work,  required for real underlying change, releasing unconscious sabotage, rewiring the subconscious, releasing  trauma, and addressing the core, fear based ways of operating that appear to work against us – the ones backed by thoughts such as ‘What if I’m not good enough’.

Real. Raw. Core. Root. Soul. Deep. Healing. Transformation.

On my path to becoming myself, trusting myself and stepping into my power I had to choose alignment over validation from others, and ease over addictive hustle, struggle and chaos.

I had an extremely difficult childhood resulting in years of anxiety, unworthiness and insecurity. I lacked confidence and self – belief, had chronic low self-esteem and constantly sought external validation.

When I became the UK media go -to -expert and secured 15 episodes of a prime time TV show and a book deal, and my agent had requests coming in from TV networks in NYC and LA I had a persistent, internalised, fear of being exposed as a fraud.

From the outside, my life looked good. Privately, though, I was struggling, overwhelmed by the attention, anxious that I couldn’t meet with the expectations of my publisher or agent…fear was running the show.  I craved BIG success, yet was terrified of it.

I felt so overwhelmed my nervous system was flooded with survival instincts. Obsessing over the outcomes kept me in limbo. I was operating from the place of desperation ‘I must make it happen’ blinding my intuition, judging myself, beating myself up…

The woman I am today, confidently, boldly, unapologetically knows her power, and how to maintain that. How to hold it. How to stay in it.

A day at a time I’m moving on from my yesterdays…From who I was. In all areas. On all levels. In all ways,  I’m doing well.

On the personal side, my obsessions include…

A beautiful home… Diptique candles… black ripped jeans, biker boots worn with pretty maxi dresses… cashmere v necks in every colour, white linen shirts… hearing the excitement in my clients voices when they’ve had a breakthrough…west end musicals, hanging out with my nieces,  orange roses and pink lilies… honesty, integrity, kindness… Tom Ford black orchid, reading, walking in nature, linen bedsheets, lavender pillow spray, the sound of waves, writing, sweatpants, notebooks… did I mention fresh mint tea?

Welcome to Annie Ashdown